B.A.S.I

I really cant think well when i'm mad.

I'm more insane when i couldnt let go of my anger.

It is either i confront with that person and give my wholly punch,

or i just shut the hell my mouth and back away with full of anger.

For the past 3 years, i've been torturing this girl.

She is the one who always be by my side.

For every up and down of my life she'll continuosly stay beside me.

I rarely tell her what i've been furious at or problems that i'm facing.

I just cant. Sorry.

It is hard to carry all the loads by yourself.

Most of the people find its better to share it with your partner.

I would like to do the same thing, but again i just cant.

Despite of my stubbornness, she somehow pretty good at handling me during those hard times.

I'm not sure how she get to do it. I guess she learnt it through her experience with me.

As for now,

No one gonna ask me to just forget what has happened.

To buy me food n drinks. To make me laugh again.

To just sit at those benches with all the wind blowing towards us.

No more of those things.

I really wish basi could mumble like she always did to me.

Wish that she could take me out of this anger.

C.R.A.Z.Y

Crazy..



We did something crazy bfore we head back.

Sending a letter of lyrics to that special eyes.

Wishing that u could understand what purple felt.

Waiting and observing for more than a year is tiring.

But purple gathered it's strength till now.

Dear special eyes :

"Nevermind, i'll find someone like you..

I wish nothing but the best for you too..

Don't forget me, I begged, I remember you said..

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead..

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.."

The more u said u can't, the more u love.

The more u avoid, the more it comes.

Wishing the best for you purple..

I'll always be by ur side forever and after.

L.O.S.T

A long lost feeling.

Its already a month since my last update.

Its not that i forget about it, but...

Its super hard for me to do it.

Thruthly,

I've got a lot of things to be shared with..

I've got tons of stories to tell.

I've plenty of pictures to be posted..

But..

It seems that i can't do it frequently as i did before.

I dont have much time to spare..Not even for my own self.

Mostly, i'll be in my class.

Running here and there settling every assignments and project.

Attending the meetings.

Hunting for the lecturers.

And of course i don't get enough sleep..!!

I miss you blog.. =' (

If you were to be realistic..

It would be much greatful..

W.T.H

Err.. W.T.H??

Tak senonoh betul la pen nie..

Time org nk wat keje, dan dan tu la ink nk tsekat2..

Mguji btl keimanan dan kesabaran.

Kalu nk ikut kan ati jantan, nk je conteng dinding blik nie.

Biar cantik skit..

Asal tulis je.. terputus-putus.

Asal terputus-putus je, tgh tulis.

Tak phm btl la..!!!

Kang ade yg pen berbekas2 kena gigitan aku nieh..

Waaa..! Mak.......... Nk pen baru blh...?

hehe.. Tk ade keje ke ape??

Dh beso2 mintk mak belikn pen.

Ehhh... Biar la.

Bkn nye slalu pun nk bmnje ngan mak sndiri kan.

Kan mak kannnn... heee..

Aihzz.. Looks like i've to be patient with my pen.

Its really irritating.

Am i that hot tempered??

Obviously. Baru tau ke?

Haha.. Diam2 sudahh.

T.I.R.E.D

I'm tired of it.

Its hurting me...

T___T

Feels like a bullet stuck in my head n its bleeding like hell.

I dunno why..

But it keeps haunting me whenever i see it. 

Whenever i see people in pain.

When i see them suffer in every single moment they went through.

Every time i saw them wounded.

Every time i saw they end their lives in a way that would make me sob.

Would it be juz... a sympathy..??

I always told myself not to choose that path.

but...

In the end, i found out that the more i run from it.

The more it comes to me.

I alwayz hope that the existence people are able to help them.

Able to find a way, method or.. whatever it takes to save them.

But.. we people have no superpower to stop what has really written for us.

Therefore i pray, pray really hard to Allah that He could give the best for me, for us, for the people around the world.

InsyaAllah.. Amin~

B.U.S.Y

Busy.

Feb is the busiest month of all.

I'm Back

I'm Back

Alhamdulillah..

After two weeks of training n Jamboree, finally I'm home..!

Bout 2230H yesterday I arrived safely in sbg jaya.

I miss my family so much..!!

and

I miss my friends too..!!

To all my readers, sorry to make u wait for me..

Gomenasai..

I'll try to update this blog as soon as possible..

Bye for now..

C.O.M.P.L.E.X

Shocked.

I've no desire to talk..

Still feeling depress bout yesterday.

Still shocked..

Couldnt accept that it juz fell down rite infront of me.

Yet, I do have the desire to eat.

Haha.. crazy isnt..?

Has no desire to talk, but has the desire to eat.

Well, its true..

Juz admit it la weyh.. (u r fat.. XD) 

Haha. Hu cares...

  

Bored.

I'm kinda bored at home..

Truly to say, I'm superbbbBBB bored..

I miss my pals, friends, geng, and others that was part of me during those school days.

Miss them sooooOO much..!!

Where did u guys go..

Plzz do do dO invite ME go shopping, watch movies, lepak-ing or whatever la..

I can accompany u for the whole day.. (Am i that desperate..??)

Haha.. Kind of..

P.R.O.B.L.E.M.S...??

Blog..!!
Can u lend me ur space..??
To much burden that i get.
To much burden that i hold.
Plz..This is the only place where my probs

and my little headache somehow released.

I hope so..
Well, either u give or u dont. It doesnt matter.

Its my blog though. So hu cares whether u give or not.

The story of my prob started during the final exam.. What the heck weyh.. Nape la ade exam..tk paham btl. I asked my mom.. (hehe..mcm bdk2) "Ma..Nape ade exam..??" Then she replied, "Exam is needed to test ur knowledge, what do u really understand what u've learned. And do u really understand what the lecturer has teached u." From what she has said, i tried to gather some spirits (although it doesnt last long) to get through the exams. I looked at the people sorrounds me, they really working damn hard, burn the midnight oil, do exercises, do revisions day and night.. Their action really freaking scary. Coz no matter what happened,I

dun feel like reading nor get myself ready for the upcoming exams.

I sit at my own sweet bed. Flip through the pages of some books, eating and sleeping calmly. Pretending that nothing bad is going to happen. Acting as if there are no exams coming around. But all of it were mistakes. All i can say is a mistake. I took it easily. Serve me right, I cant do well. I juz hoped and pray a lot that I pass for all the subjects that i took. Thats what i want now. Not expecting sumthing good nor excellent in my results. Hope Allah will help me.. Aminn~.

 

NeXt StORy plz....

After the first prob, now comes another. I think life without challenge is like a drawing block without sketches. Challenges in life seemed to be part of u, me and other people. Those challenges really make u strong, tough, mature and it acts as the pencil that makes ur drawing block interesting and nice. My second prob comes when i came home. The house is really disaster. My room is totally ruined. Having siblings that are irresponsible really makes me angry. I've got many things to take care of. Starting from the tinest things to the biggest. I receive tons of pressure everyday. One of it is teaching my bro in his studies. Which is one of my weakness. I'm not really good in teaching.. Hehe. And my dad keep pushing me and my bro. My bro eventually doesnt seem to be interested in studying during the school holidays. Oh common, hu on earth would like to study during holidays..?? Even I, myself  wont do it. But, I'll try somehow to teach him.

Well thats all for now i guess..

Gonna crap more during this holidays.

Get ready for my nonsense..

See u again.. Bye..