M.I.S.S

I'm missing the old me.

Please come back.

I really need you!

D.E.A.R.E.S.T 2

Dear my lovely blog..

I'm sorry to put such a personal problem again here.

I know you would be bored with it. I'm sorry..

I can only rely on you.. I hope i will always do.

The recent post was about her. 

Again this post will be about her. I'm not sure when i'll be over her.

This time it takes a longer time than before.

About what i've thought about her in the last post

was really really true. Everything.. Not even a single thing is strayed.

That kind of thoughts and feelings are like a guide to me.

It feels like something is telling me what is going to happen in the future.

Its like an instinct. It is an instinct.. No doubt.

Since i knew something is going to happen soon.

I guess i'm well prepared with it. And yeah.. I passed it with excellence.

But one thing that has been a nightmare for me is how 

people judge me for what has happened. People would never know the truth.

Unless they ask for the real story.

I once happened to face the similar situation.

But that situation differ in such away that the person is living outside

of my area. This time, the person is living in my area.

I dont know what to expect. I really dont..

I've no clue about the future.

Its been haunting me for days now.

Will i ever survive? Am i going to be drifted far away?

Am i able to handle the situation? Am i going to win??

No answers for now. But they will be. A good one.

InsyaAllah.. I pray hard for all of these things will never come true.

I leave it to Him, the Most Powerful. Amin..

G.A.M.E. O.V.E.R

Oppss.. I caught you red handed.

It is officially Game Over.

G.O.T.C.H.H.A

Kamu Cinta Aku dan Dia.

Hancur hatiMu, mengenang Dia

Menjadi keping-keping, setelah Dia pergi

Tinggalkan kasih sayang,

yang pernah singgah, antara Kita

Masihkah ada, sayang itu

Memang salahMu, yang tak pernah bisa

Meninggalkan diriNya, tuk bersama Aku

Walau tuk trus bersama,

kan ada hati, yang kan terluka

Dan Ku tahu, Kau tak mau

Sekali lagi maafkanlah,

karena Kamu, cinta Aku dan Dia

Maafkanlah, Kamu tak bisa,

tinggalkan dirinya

Mungkin tak mungkin, tuk terus bersama

Jalani semua cinta, yang tlah dijalani

Tapi bila itu yang,

Aku pikir yang terbaik untukMu

BahagiaKu, untuk diriMu

Simpan sisa-sisa, cerita cinta berDua

Walau tak tersisa, cerita cinta berDua

Still U have, in Ur eyes

Still U have forever

Still love her, in Ur mind

Still love her forever

D.E.A.R.E.S.T

Dear blog..

I started to feel that the existence of her doesn't affect me at all.

Whether she is here or she is at other places, i dont really bother.

But at times, i do think that the existence of her is important to me.

I'm confused. I dont know which one is the truth.

Sometimes i love her. And sometimes i juz dont.

Does anyone faced the same prob as mine?

Lately, i felt as if i'm far away from her. I treated her indifferently. 
Whats wrong with me?? Was it because i already forget about her? 
It cant be. No. It cant. She's in my mind. Always.

Or.. Was it because i'm bored with her? Was that the main cause??
If yes..Then the relationship that i've built with her is 
merely the same as others.

Maybe i'm tired to be the one who always start it first.
Feel as if i'm the one who is over excited. Whereas she doesnt.
So..I decided to follow her rhythm.
"U didnt call me. So i dont call u.
U didnt text me. So i dont text u.
U need me only when u need me. So i'll do the same thing to u."
Fair and square right??

U are such an egoist Lee.
I'm not egoist.. I'm juz tired. 
I'm tired to take care of my heart every time i got hurt.
I'm tired.. Seriously..

Y.O.U A.R.E N.O.T A.L.O.N.E

Everyday I sit and ask myself,

How did love slip away??

Something whispers in my ear and says,

That you are not alone,

I'm here with you,

Though you're far away,

I'm here to stay.

Just the other night,

I thought i heard you cry,

Asking me to come,

And hold you in my arms.

I can hear your prayers,

Your burdens I will bear.

But first, I need your hand.

Then forever can begin.

Whisper 3 words and i'll come running,

and you know that i'll be there..

I'll be there..

S.U.N n C.L.O.U.D

Today is 1st November.

Its been raining all day. The cloud is pouring his heart out.

He cried so hard that he didnt even stop once. He is much in pain compared to me.

But what make it so sad? Does his lover, the Sun has abandoned him??

The Sun is soo bright and cheerful that even myself is fascinated by it.

The color just lights mylife to the max. Where did you go Sunny?

Why did u leave Cloud for these few days? You know he is been crying all these days, dont you?

He loves you so much Sunny. I'm sure you love him too..

I juz love the way you are. Both of you suit each other!

You both always accompany me on my way to the class. I've got no one..I'm alone here Sunny.

I would love if both of you could do it again. I'm sure you have your own reason. Its okay.

I'll wait for you.. I will and always~

M.O.M n D.A.D

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slama ini oleh ku kpd mereka..

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Yg slama ini hanya mgejar kgembiraan dunia..

Wahai ibu.. Wahai ayah.. Ampunkanlah dosa anak mu ini..

Tlalu sedih dn hiba hati ini mngenangkn jasa dn pengorbanan kamu thadap ku.

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Akn aku doakan selamanya akn ksejahteraan dn kebaikn kamu bdua.

Moga kamu bdua sntiasa brada di bwh pemeliharaan-Nya.. Amin..